muhd fadhli . i missed you alott .

yeah , now all i have are my Sinansari Sahmura girls . but i have no you to cry on . to lean on . to hug . no you to make me laugh everyday when i got home . no you to text . no one to text infact . no you to make me smile whe i receive a text msg . no you at all now :'( im sure you're happy . with her . being happy together . i know . i can imagine it . im glad . i know i should be happy . but whenever i thought of it , i'll picture the two of you laughing at my face . and saying "in your face bitch !" . ugh . its sad . :'( its always been sad whenever i talked about you nowadays . since that day actually .

muhd fadhli . yknow on monday 14th March . ive been crying alot about you . missed you so much . its been so long . and im yearning to be in your arms again like soon :'(but . like i said . will never happen . and when i was going home from dance , i cried to the girls on how i missed you so much . infront of the cityvibe . really sosomuch . and at that point of time , i also did tell amri that i missed you . and by an unexpected chance , when we were buying bubble tea , you all walked in when i was standing right infront of the entrance . one thing i was confuse about . did i smile at you ? did i ? i thought i was . but i also didnt think i did :/ when you walked right pass , i swear , i swear i couldnt breathe . i really felt like breaking down that instant , infront of you with my ugly face . but . i dont think you would bother even if i did . it hurts . alot :'( so instead , i went outside . let the public see my ugly face instead of you . weird right . cos i didnt want you to see that im still hoping for you . cos i know . inside that little heart of yours , there's only room for one precious person :'( which is not me . another weird thing . it hurts alot . but why do i still have to see you on the morning of 15th March ? :'( its cos we live in the same area i know . no matter how hard we try to avoid each other , there would be a time when we still have to see each other faces . ouch :'( i know was looking down the whole time . again , i did cry when i was at the traffic light . again it hurts . again i didnt think you cared :'(

dear fadhli , yes , im really affected and still being affected now . because i love you . i am still loving you . why ? i dont know . why cant i let go ? i dont know . cos iloveyou sosomuch . really . i cant just let go like that . i know i did say that maybe someday i wont be in your future . but .. didnt expect that we'd really seperate :'( the words you said when you wanted a break are still stuck in my head . and justnow when i saw wan . he reminds me of you :'( he was always there when we hung out tgther . and he made me scared again saying "datanglah" . rmmbr ? when he said that , i felt you hugs . covering my ears :'( bby , i swear i miss those times . i missed you :'( please . cant i have you back ? :'(

mrfourth :'( i want you back :'(